Ignorant People

Know what I can't stand?
Stupid people.

I really don't see how hard it is to not act like a complete moron.
I mean yes, we all do make mistakes, but really? Is polluting your body with drugs and alcohol a better option? I GET IT. Life is hard, it can be a bitch, it can be unfair, but what the hell makes all that stupid junk make up for?
I'm so sick of walking around campus and hearing people talking about swapping pain pills and cocaine.
And I'm so tired of seeing SO MANY people I used to hang out with become anorexic alcoholics.
It's pathetic to see someone go from this:

To this:

W T F?

(I miss this kid. :/).

YES. I KNOW. I've been through my phases too:
From mega goth

To punk, (DISTURBING).:

To Normal (Present).: 

But in my defense, I woke up and realized that the stupid makeup, and black hair, and injuring myself, was S T U P I D. I stopped the eating disorder, I stopped the cutting, because it didn't help at all.

It's depressing when my old best friend doesn't even talk to me, because I'm not "IN" to his his whole crowd. I miss 7th grade, when we weren't all emotionally disturbed. :/.
To wrap this up.
I WANT MY DAMN BEST FRIEND BACK!

Sigh. Even if you don't realize I exist anymore, I miss and love you Stevey Face. :(.

Stress Much?

So allow me to explain why I feel like ripping my hair out of my skull.


For the past week the stress has been overlapping non-stop. Geometry is just getting worse, and I can't stand the school I'm going to. It's constant 24/7 being alone. Do you know how old that gets? And come on, the teachers that I apparently take interest to, probably hardly remember my name. I'm so sick of people telling me "peers" and to "make friends". It'd be nice if half the school wasn't full of jocks, or morons who can't carry on a decent conversation.

Moving on to parents.

Dad: This man is probably the most difficult to talk to. If he says the sky is purple, there is no way in hell that you can convince him otherwise. He gives me constant guilt trips all that time. And apparently if I date someone, I'm sleeping with other guys. I'm sick of the accusations, being called a slut/whore, and being talked down on. I deserve more respect than that, and it's sickening that my own father and blood is saying all this.

Mom: I wish she'd just stay and bed and get better rest. I mean for God's sake, she was just in the hospital last night. Isn't that a sign to stop the smoking, rest in bed, and get rid of the virus? It doesn't mean drive 24/7 in a stupid taxi cab to make money. We have food here, nothing bad is going to happen if you take a few days off. It's hard to run back and fourth making sure your still breathing, while I'm cooking dinner or doing homework. If your asthma is acting up, stop the stupid smoking, because I sure as hell do not enjoy inhaling it either. I wish you'd see just how much I care about your health. :/.

I'm finding it hard to manage time. Laundry, dinner, homework, Bucky, Yuuki, Dalton, it's hard to juggle it all. School is irritating me, but I wont drop out, no matter what anyone says, and I refuse to end a relationship I have with someone I truly care about for stupid stress. I love my animals, then mean the world to me. So what the hell do I do? I'm lost, I'm scared, and I'm sick.


Help?

-Kristen.

There Is Beauty In A Break Down

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Tester/Starting Out Blog January/10/2011

I've never had a place to express my ideas,opinions, and thoughts so openly before, SO! I decided that it was time for me to start a blog. That way I can interact with people around the world that may or may not share the same thoughts as I do. Let me start off by introducing myself. My name is Kristen and I am fifteen years old. Young? Maybe in my appearance, but I am far mature for my age.

I hate being treated like a child, and can't stand ignorant people. I am probably THE WORST Procrastinator.That may be, but I am a very hard worker. Nothing is free in this world, and I have learned that in difficult ways. My political views go a bit like this: Republican/Conservative. I will stick to that title rather proudly. Moving on from the serious topics! I adore the arts, and will do everything possible to spark some idea of inspiration. I draw constantly, and I push myself over limits of my art. My favorite type of art is photography, basic sketches, and painting.

Music also plays a major role in my life. The type of music I listen to is changed throughout my emotions and moods. Currently, I've been in The Police, Imogen Heap, Frou-Frou, Skillet, The Beatles, Def Leppard, ACDC, Ozzy Osbourne, Van Halen, Lynard Skynard, A Fine Frenzy, ETC. Too many to list honestly. I adore animals. My dream dog is a Husky. I've always wanted one, but I do have my baby boy Yuuki (Name after A Japanese Name Meaning: Child Of The Snow), and a Quarter Horse Bucky. (He got his name for a good reason). Yuuki is the youngest being only two, saved him from the Corona Pound when he was 6 weeks old. I've loved that little trouble since I met him. Bucky is 28, he's healthy for his age. Extremely good to ride, but VERY stubborn.


To move this along. I've been in a relationship for over four months now with my best friend, Dalton. We met back in 7th grade, and have been best friends since then. (He's actually 3 months younger than me, but it does not look like it. At all. :(!

Moving onto FAMILY!!!!

My mother is considered my best friend, we've been through a lot together, and she's been through all my stages in life. I am grateful for her being in my life.

My sister, well I haven't seen her in years really. She currently lives in NY with her boyfriend. She is 20, and moved away when she was 17 when she finished High School. The last time I saw her was March 29th- April 7th 2008 I believe but we keep in touch and exchange life stories and details. I miss her dreadfully.

My father and I hardly really ever talk. He calls every now and again, but were not all that close. Long story. He lives in Oceanside by his mother and visits every few months. He has however met Dalton and approves drastically. THAT'S GOOD!


I do believe I have missed telling something about myself. I'm from Versailles, Kentucky, and moved her in 2005 I believe. I consider California my home, but do miss thunderstorms. Oh how I love rain. Nature inspired me easily and convinces me to walk for hours on end in no general direction.

I should probably sum this up. Geometry test tomorrow. Oh joy.
Until then!

-Kupo.